back on native land...tanah tumpahnya darahku. haha..today is my second day home and i'm still experiencing this certain surreal-ness. i cannot believe that a whole year has gone by and next year will be creeping up soon. oh well.. just going to enjoy my hols now. was thinking of getting a part time job...but having second thoughts about it. sing theng is in pangkor sailing!! i'm so jealous!! sailing is so invigorating! love the feeling of open seas..but the thought of getting capsized does frighten me. i will ask him to take me sailing one of these days..:)
it's sad to lose a loved one..but even more devastating if one can't grief over it. it hurts and it destroys oneself. allow grief. remove the facade of bravery. break down. only then will recovery and acceptance come. moving on does not at any level means forgetting the loved one. love will never die or fade if it is true. so accept and proceed with life. it is not wrong.
oh i wanna watch tht chinese musical 'perhaps love'! looks good. the cinematography looks really good. oh oh...body shop and mtv are selling this coin purse which has a compartment to keep a condom!! it's in aid of aids victims. did u now tht almost half of the drug addict population in indonesia are HIV positive. it's so sad. they area totally ignorant about HIV. they don't even know how it spreads. this guy thought he would never get HIV by using intravenous drugs cause he thought that him only having sex with his wife would mean that he will never get HIV. but oh my..he was so wrong cause he shared needles with other drug addicts and lo and behold...he became HIV positive. fortunately he has access to retrovirus controlling drugs. and now he's trying to go round educating other drug addicts to use clean, steralized needles. aids in south east asia is becoming really bad. well aids is already 'epidemic'.
this update has been totally random..i know. haha..oh well..teh fats in me must be getting to me. damn i put on! okok..i shall not complain about it anymore. have been torturing my whole family with my whining. haha..
till the next update...unpredicatable.
November 22, 2005
November 15, 2005
MERDEKA
merdeka!! i am free from exams!!! omg..i have already officially completed one year of uni. i have just saat for my last exams of the year. the last exam as a first year student. i will be a 2nd year student soon...time flies by so quickly! i just realised that i've known all my coursemates for a year already...and also i've known CERTAIN people for almost a year too!! wow...how time flies. i think just the sudden blow of all this has overwhelmed me. i need time to let it sink in...*breathe in**breathe out* my mum and aunt are over. will be taking them around melb and shopping! then i'll be home. zoe's going to greet me with a bunch of flowers! haha..tht's what she said she will do la. haha..it's going to be a first...having my sis greet me at the airport. bizarre...but got to get use to it. nothing much to write about now..just want to shout out...I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE U!
till the next update...time flies like a speeding bird.
till the next update...time flies like a speeding bird.
November 12, 2005
say no!
"you can be a slave and yet free, poor and yet have the world in ur hands"
~wormwood by gp taylors~
this book is just filled with profound extracts. love it! there was actually one extract about how power corrupts...but decided not to put it up. it was really well put though. this quote just makes u realise tht material goods are not a yard stick to happiness or fulfillment. i think once in awhile we need to remind ourselves about the REAL impotant things in life so tht we don't get diluded into living the rat race day after day..for our entire life. this is also a reminder to all who's sitting for exams..do not be discouraged by it. there is more to life then scoring high marks! i wish i could feel contented by knowing that.
SAY NO TO PREJUDICE! being a muslim or a christian or a buddhist or a hindu or a bahaian doesn't make us superior to another. we all believe in one divine power in whtever form we believe it to be in. we all believe in doing good and not bad. we all believe in peace and equality. we all believe in respect and humility. we all are human. made from blood and flesh. all falling under the same species in the huge animal kingdom. do not let a slight difference in the 'title' of what we call to be our beliefs mask the similarity we all share. put urself in the person's shoes..if u fall prey to prejudicism..how would u feel? a few bad eggs does not make the whole basket rotten as well. do not succumb to prejudicism.
had to say tht after seeing all tht's been going on in aus. i think the statement "go back to where u came from" should never be said because we are all migrants somewhere along our lineage.
till the next update...i just want peace.
~wormwood by gp taylors~
this book is just filled with profound extracts. love it! there was actually one extract about how power corrupts...but decided not to put it up. it was really well put though. this quote just makes u realise tht material goods are not a yard stick to happiness or fulfillment. i think once in awhile we need to remind ourselves about the REAL impotant things in life so tht we don't get diluded into living the rat race day after day..for our entire life. this is also a reminder to all who's sitting for exams..do not be discouraged by it. there is more to life then scoring high marks! i wish i could feel contented by knowing that.
SAY NO TO PREJUDICE! being a muslim or a christian or a buddhist or a hindu or a bahaian doesn't make us superior to another. we all believe in one divine power in whtever form we believe it to be in. we all believe in doing good and not bad. we all believe in peace and equality. we all believe in respect and humility. we all are human. made from blood and flesh. all falling under the same species in the huge animal kingdom. do not let a slight difference in the 'title' of what we call to be our beliefs mask the similarity we all share. put urself in the person's shoes..if u fall prey to prejudicism..how would u feel? a few bad eggs does not make the whole basket rotten as well. do not succumb to prejudicism.
had to say tht after seeing all tht's been going on in aus. i think the statement "go back to where u came from" should never be said because we are all migrants somewhere along our lineage.
till the next update...i just want peace.
November 11, 2005
why history repeats itself
"Evil is not limited to people, there are wicked strongholds that occupy the land itself. Every act of violence or tragedy charges the very particles of the earth with its presence. There are powers that feed on this and pitch their tent, making their dwelling place amongst men. Then you wonder why the trials of the ages repeat themselves time and time again in the same place, every generaton cursed like the one that went before. Wherever you tread you leave behind the scent of your sweating feet. So too with the spirit, its groanings are absorbed by the stones, to be played again and again."
~extract from Wormwood by G.P. Taylor~
just read this extract from that book and thought it interesting in answering the unusual phenomena of history repeating itself no matter how many times we have memorials, songs, articals, documentaries, books, we have on each recurring 'mistake' men has made throughout the history of civilization. there may be such a power out there...if u do believe in a higher power of good..there also should be an equal power of evil. newton's third law! wonder whether we could call that 'evil power' politicians. haha..
anyway...can't help but notice the sexism in this book..the stereotypes so obviously displayed by this writer. an intentional one or not..tht i wonder. well i guess even great minds do fall prey to the social stereotypes ecthed in the community since the beginning of civilisation. but i just have to mention it anyway..the source of evil in this book is a WOMAN and all the angels and the protagonist are MEN! why must things good always be symbolised or represented by the male sex??!!! even the master of angels in this book is a MAN! why are women mostly subjugated to either minimal roles or the extreme of 'evilness' roles in books?! the only book i have read so far who has a women as the powerful all knowing being is by david eddings..(comments are just referring to fantasy genre books..so far..) but even then..she still seeks the wisdom of an older man! haha.. a book which has all main characters as women should be written. wait actually i think there is...the 'valley of the horses' two part series has women as teh main characters..i think..not too sure..have to read it to find out!
was watching this programme critiquing movies..i still love all frame per frame animation. corpse bride! love that style of animation! tim burton..you rule! haha.. i will always prefer the old traditional way of animation..with the tiny help of digital animation of course to refine the rough ages of the old. love the animator and cartoonist ludwig as well...i think tht's how u spell his name. he has some really profound work. love them! oh should watch deep throat-the documentary. made by two gay directors. it's documentary about this movie made way back called deep throat which caused huge controversy about the acceptance of pornography. hm...maybe should watch the original movie sometime..deep throat..sex and controversy..the ultimate ingredients for a great movie! so many movies i yearn to watch but all of them will never be screened in msia. most of them are either art flicks or international films. sigh..kl should have a nova! i'll be their loyal customer! haha..patron of the year!
will stop my with my utterly boring and useless talk.
till the next update...lux luciet!
~extract from Wormwood by G.P. Taylor~
just read this extract from that book and thought it interesting in answering the unusual phenomena of history repeating itself no matter how many times we have memorials, songs, articals, documentaries, books, we have on each recurring 'mistake' men has made throughout the history of civilization. there may be such a power out there...if u do believe in a higher power of good..there also should be an equal power of evil. newton's third law! wonder whether we could call that 'evil power' politicians. haha..
anyway...can't help but notice the sexism in this book..the stereotypes so obviously displayed by this writer. an intentional one or not..tht i wonder. well i guess even great minds do fall prey to the social stereotypes ecthed in the community since the beginning of civilisation. but i just have to mention it anyway..the source of evil in this book is a WOMAN and all the angels and the protagonist are MEN! why must things good always be symbolised or represented by the male sex??!!! even the master of angels in this book is a MAN! why are women mostly subjugated to either minimal roles or the extreme of 'evilness' roles in books?! the only book i have read so far who has a women as the powerful all knowing being is by david eddings..(comments are just referring to fantasy genre books..so far..) but even then..she still seeks the wisdom of an older man! haha.. a book which has all main characters as women should be written. wait actually i think there is...the 'valley of the horses' two part series has women as teh main characters..i think..not too sure..have to read it to find out!
was watching this programme critiquing movies..i still love all frame per frame animation. corpse bride! love that style of animation! tim burton..you rule! haha.. i will always prefer the old traditional way of animation..with the tiny help of digital animation of course to refine the rough ages of the old. love the animator and cartoonist ludwig as well...i think tht's how u spell his name. he has some really profound work. love them! oh should watch deep throat-the documentary. made by two gay directors. it's documentary about this movie made way back called deep throat which caused huge controversy about the acceptance of pornography. hm...maybe should watch the original movie sometime..deep throat..sex and controversy..the ultimate ingredients for a great movie! so many movies i yearn to watch but all of them will never be screened in msia. most of them are either art flicks or international films. sigh..kl should have a nova! i'll be their loyal customer! haha..patron of the year!
will stop my with my utterly boring and useless talk.
till the next update...lux luciet!
November 09, 2005
a bummer
bio paper done! 3 more to go. will not comment on bio...the results can go either way...but i have a feeling it is leaning on the 'not so good' side..sigh..what a bummer. oh well...what is done is done. one good thing though..everyone found it tough! haha..well not everyone..but most! so at least i know i'm the majority...haha no matter how hard i would want to be the minority super geniuses..hopefully our scores will be moderated..and everyone will do averagely well then the average will become a high d anyway! woohoo!! haha..hoping and praying . anyway..phhysics is next..a torture..then there's maths..another big hurdle..then my last but not least..programming! unfortunately i can't go 'yay, programming is chicken feet la' cause i totally suck at it too. sigh...i hope next year i will have some subjects where i can just score cause i have the brains for it. haha..fat hopes la! i need super brains! wait no i just need brains! haha since mine is not even mediocre. haha..
hmm..will rest till about 7..then get down to work..had good dim sum lucnh with tian and ashish..tht was nice. haven't been out with ashish for some so long. he's a certified bar tender! will definately have him mixing up drinks for me one day. he and annand are alcoholics!! in actual fact i think most of my friends whom i am close to are alcoholics in every sense of the word! haha...bad bad influence. i'm still so innocent! :p say no to the vice of alcohol..oh btw..will be drinking with my mum when she comes over. haha i'm such a hyprocite. like wht the salem advertisement use to read: live life! was it tht or live life full? can't believe they banned all advertisements from cigarette companies. they use to have the nicest ads..eg dunhill and benson and hedges. one reason being they had huge budgets for it...but oh well..still they were good. not trying to promote smoking by the way..if u DO smoke u are MAD! ok not mine to judge actually...the fact remains tht consumerism is based on choice anyway. so if u choose to buy u choose to die! haha..hypocratical statement..hey should use tht for an anti-smoking campaign slogan. catchy yet straight to the point. oh food for thought...is smoking the equivalent to drinking??
it's so warm! feel like going for a dip in the pool..but the thing is i dun think i have the key to the gate...have no idea where my cousin put it. so no swimming for me. counters running through my head at the moment:
- 3 more papers to go
- 4 more days to mum's arrival
- 11 more days to going home
- 17 more days till we're on the same soil
- more than a month before bangkok trip
- 7 more months before i turn 20
- 3 more years before i graduate!!
- 35 years of slogging before retirement
- one life to live
ok..i should get some tv watching going. haha..i'm such a coach potato.
till the next update... at peace.
hmm..will rest till about 7..then get down to work..had good dim sum lucnh with tian and ashish..tht was nice. haven't been out with ashish for some so long. he's a certified bar tender! will definately have him mixing up drinks for me one day. he and annand are alcoholics!! in actual fact i think most of my friends whom i am close to are alcoholics in every sense of the word! haha...bad bad influence. i'm still so innocent! :p say no to the vice of alcohol..oh btw..will be drinking with my mum when she comes over. haha i'm such a hyprocite. like wht the salem advertisement use to read: live life! was it tht or live life full? can't believe they banned all advertisements from cigarette companies. they use to have the nicest ads..eg dunhill and benson and hedges. one reason being they had huge budgets for it...but oh well..still they were good. not trying to promote smoking by the way..if u DO smoke u are MAD! ok not mine to judge actually...the fact remains tht consumerism is based on choice anyway. so if u choose to buy u choose to die! haha..hypocratical statement..hey should use tht for an anti-smoking campaign slogan. catchy yet straight to the point. oh food for thought...is smoking the equivalent to drinking??
it's so warm! feel like going for a dip in the pool..but the thing is i dun think i have the key to the gate...have no idea where my cousin put it. so no swimming for me. counters running through my head at the moment:
- 3 more papers to go
- 4 more days to mum's arrival
- 11 more days to going home
- 17 more days till we're on the same soil
- more than a month before bangkok trip
- 7 more months before i turn 20
- 3 more years before i graduate!!
- 35 years of slogging before retirement
- one life to live
ok..i should get some tv watching going. haha..i'm such a coach potato.
till the next update... at peace.
November 07, 2005
my jap name
My japanese name is 石川 Ishikawa (stone river) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day).
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whee!! i have a jap name!! and a nice naturalistic one it is. so earthly...just like me! just like my zodiac sign as well..the earthly taurean.
numb
why rain now?? on the day when i'm feeling good about eating a proper dinner, it rains! there goes my dinner. darn i ran out of fruit..so no fruit dinner...no soup cause i fnished the last can this afternoon..no more pita bread..only thing left is my yogurt which i had as part of my lunch. sigh...it's going to be a loooong night. rain rain go away! i want to eat subway! haha tht rhymes. mum said i look pale from a pic i took of myself when i had gone all nuts cause of studying. studying is bad. makes u just lose appetite. i;m just eating for the sake of eating. eating to live. the next week is going to be full on for me. paper after paper. don't feel prepared for any of them. going to fail for sure. i'm beginning to notice my really short sentences in this entry.
going to kick and punch some of my frustration adn anxiety out now.
till the next update...what is there?
going to kick and punch some of my frustration adn anxiety out now.
till the next update...what is there?
November 04, 2005
china dudes
ok i'm currently addicted to the videos made by these too china dudes. u've just got to watch them! i've posted one of thier videos. but it's the not so funny ones cause i just love this song.anyway go to YOUTUBE.COM and search under chinese boys! u'll get the whole list of their videos!! their 'rendition' of bsb's songs are really funny! oh oh..the guy in black in this video is hot! omg he has a nice bod!! tina and i agree tht they're not bad looking! haha..enjoy the video!
u just have to watch more of them. they even did a version of tong hua!
ok..might as well include this one which shot them up into stardom!
till the net update...buff...drool..
u just have to watch more of them. they even did a version of tong hua!
ok..might as well include this one which shot them up into stardom!
till the net update...buff...drool..
November 01, 2005
story telling
once again my skills at shoo-ing moths out of my house reeped success!!! woohoo!! *pat**pat* ok tht may seem totally random but tht particular skill is utmost necessary when u're living alone with no one else who's not afraid of catching a moth with his/her bare hands. i had to shower in semi-darkness because of tht moth! it just flew in from the vent in my bathroom while i was on the verge of taking my shower!! oh the agony and dismay! sorry..just had to add in the dramatics. :) so i had to walk out clad only with a bath towel around me..into the lounge..turned off all the lights in my room and living area..opened the balcony door and stood there in the dark waiting to see the flitter of wings going through the open door. unfortunately the moth could not see the glimmering lights from the bathroom. so...back into the shower i headed and there it was..the menacing moth settled on the ceiling oblivious to my intentions. once again..i turned off the lights..grabbed a m op and shooed it out into the lounge..slammed the door shut and thus showered in semi darkness (now i know why i have two sets of switches for lights in my bathroom! smart electrical engineers!) phew..tht's almost the story done. after a nice relaxing shower..i ventured out..ears pricked for any sound of fluttering wings. to my horror or rather dismay the stupid bloody moth was still in my house!! resting on the blinds of the glass balcony door..well at least tht made my job easier. after much 'coaxing' and 'banging' of the blinds it finally found its way out into the fresh air. and tht my friends concludes the episode of 'the menacing moth'! taa-daa!!! haha..wht a night! oh well..actually it wouldn't have made a diff if zoe was still lliving with me cause she's terrified of insects. so it would have been my duty as a good elder sister to shoo it out. sigh..the responsibilites of a jie jie. :D
as my night turned out to be some insect encounter gone wrong..my dear family is sunbathing and relaxing at guoman, port dickson!! they called to tell me how nice the hotel looks now after this massive overhaul..how the restaurants look all modern and sophisticated..according to my dad "all look like fusion style now!" haha..they'll be having a rangoli(indian) dinner in one of the new restaurants there. sigh..i miss all these short trips with the family. eventhough they usually were just 3 days, 2 nights, but the most fun and relaxing 3 days off they were. never ever got bored of them. we just havve so much to discuss and talk about..my family and i. the topics of coonversation can be as nonsensical as 'how shit look like when u have diarrhoea' to almost profound and enlightening topics such as religion and faith. and of course family meals will never be complete without fits of laughter and insults thrown at one another. i do pity my mum though..she does almost always unintentionally become the victim of my dad's and us, sisters' sarcasm. however she always takes it with grace. how she survives us..i have no idea! haha..i would really like to write a book about my family one day. if i ever have the courage to put my thoughts onto paper and also to have the will and desire to write tirelessly. another restrictive factor would be if i have the boldness to venture into writing! i have always doubted my skill as a writer. never thought my writing good enough for others to read (thought to self...why am i blogging then???) narrative writing requires a style of writing so different and uniquue to capture and enrapture the reader. tht is so hard to achieve! hmm..maybe one day i will be comfortable with myself..confident enough with myself and also brave enough to put this thought into practice. will writing ever become my forte? *drum roll* "AND THT IS THE MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION" haha.ok tht was lame.
i did manage to put in 2 hours of work today! one achievement of the day! shall increase tht number soon... tmrw i'll be meeting jitesh for lunch! he'll be leaving for kl on the 8th. didn't even manage to meet up with him often. stupid fella too lazy to travel. humph. oh well..will be meeting him tmrw anyway and he'll be bringing along his car!! yipee!! don't have to walk. yippee! will never get bored of his company. he's always been there for me when i needed him. he's been a great friend and one i'll really miss when we start making ur own paths in life. i can see him becoming a totally successful engineer. using whtever wits he has to succeed in life. he's one smart guy.
ok enough reflection and grandmother stories from me. it's back to the books for me. nerd-dom here i come! haha..
till the next update...where have all those years gone?
as my night turned out to be some insect encounter gone wrong..my dear family is sunbathing and relaxing at guoman, port dickson!! they called to tell me how nice the hotel looks now after this massive overhaul..how the restaurants look all modern and sophisticated..according to my dad "all look like fusion style now!" haha..they'll be having a rangoli(indian) dinner in one of the new restaurants there. sigh..i miss all these short trips with the family. eventhough they usually were just 3 days, 2 nights, but the most fun and relaxing 3 days off they were. never ever got bored of them. we just havve so much to discuss and talk about..my family and i. the topics of coonversation can be as nonsensical as 'how shit look like when u have diarrhoea' to almost profound and enlightening topics such as religion and faith. and of course family meals will never be complete without fits of laughter and insults thrown at one another. i do pity my mum though..she does almost always unintentionally become the victim of my dad's and us, sisters' sarcasm. however she always takes it with grace. how she survives us..i have no idea! haha..i would really like to write a book about my family one day. if i ever have the courage to put my thoughts onto paper and also to have the will and desire to write tirelessly. another restrictive factor would be if i have the boldness to venture into writing! i have always doubted my skill as a writer. never thought my writing good enough for others to read (thought to self...why am i blogging then???) narrative writing requires a style of writing so different and uniquue to capture and enrapture the reader. tht is so hard to achieve! hmm..maybe one day i will be comfortable with myself..confident enough with myself and also brave enough to put this thought into practice. will writing ever become my forte? *drum roll* "AND THT IS THE MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION" haha.ok tht was lame.
i did manage to put in 2 hours of work today! one achievement of the day! shall increase tht number soon... tmrw i'll be meeting jitesh for lunch! he'll be leaving for kl on the 8th. didn't even manage to meet up with him often. stupid fella too lazy to travel. humph. oh well..will be meeting him tmrw anyway and he'll be bringing along his car!! yipee!! don't have to walk. yippee! will never get bored of his company. he's always been there for me when i needed him. he's been a great friend and one i'll really miss when we start making ur own paths in life. i can see him becoming a totally successful engineer. using whtever wits he has to succeed in life. he's one smart guy.
ok enough reflection and grandmother stories from me. it's back to the books for me. nerd-dom here i come! haha..
till the next update...where have all those years gone?
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